Deep Deep Deep....

Jealousy is simply and clearly the fear that you do not have value.
Jealousy scans for evidence to prove the point - that others will be preferred and rewarded more than you.
There is only one alternative - self-value.
If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved.
Jealousy is always born with love, but does not always die with it..I don't understand why did every human feeling will grow "JEALOUS",
Sometime have people just told me if you are jealous with somebody,
That means you can't take your self compare with them,
Because there was nothing to compare with it!!!
But sometime just....
You can't control those feeling at all...
It always around you,
Since you were born...
You can't delete that feeling..
You always do feel it..
It gonna be around you...

Sometimes I think back that the quot est I saw..
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it?
it makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defences, you build up a whole suit of armour,
so that nothing can hurt you.
Then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person,
wanders into your stupid life...
You give them a piece of you.
They didn't ask for it.
They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages.
It gets inside you.
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness,
so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.
It hurts. Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
It full of the meaning..
And it simply show that LOVE IS BLIND,
It always will be..
And it also say once you don't blind with love,
It means you not truly love that person..
Neither I am..
Although sometime I was like that..
But that was the way I show my love..
Sometime someone didn't understand..
He just think is nothing but an argue,
But it's okay..
I won't ask for more..
Because I'm childish..
Ya definitely..
And I was stupid...
And always wrong...
Arghhhh... Jerk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT THE F**CK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's true that I am sensitive..
A girl was a sensitive animal..
If she didn't love you,
She wouldn't have to do so many action and the most stupidest thing!
But guys doesn't know how to apperciate it all the time..
After them loosing it they just knew they need it..
That time is too late to start it all over again..
Sometime I don't want to tell waht did I feel,
Because I rather put inside my heart than let anyone knew..
Let myself get hurt than let both of us get hurt..
That always the stupid thing that I always do,
And never will change..
At last the most critical is me..
I have tasted it before..
I suck of that feeling..
But no choice..
Time too end up..
Continue my night shift job..

P/S:
Dear someone,
If you had read this,
You will knew it..