Papa,
Guess what? I miss you again tonight, can you feel it? Papa, after all what have been through I finally learn the words “FAMILY” and what those it means, now I just figure it out… funny right?
Without you and mummy beside me those feeling are totally terrible,
I learn to appreciate her after what did the entire thing is happening while you were away for these 6 years...
Remember last time she always was an enemy for me, I hate her for always controlling me, I hate that she leave me for her new family,
I hate that she always say bad thing about you, I hate that she always think that what did she doing was right and never think of my feeling.
But now papa I miss her so much, just realize what have she done is because she was loving me Papa, she just be what a mother have really used to be. She is the best mum I ever had, nobody can compare with her… she the best and only one for me, what did she done always was the best for me… I’m regret that always argues with her… I never learn how to love her... I never learn to how to take care of her... right now I still don’t know what did she like and doesn’t like.. But I just learn how to hurt her and make disappointing... I’m totally the useless daughter she ever has… but she still loves me... Papa… I’m really felt guilty now... I know what I did is wrong, but I’m late she already not beside me, now having my own family make me felt like it’s not easy to care of it, it’s all about responsibility, caring, respect, love and between two person at all, a happy family will begin with that..
Last time thanks to both of you gave me those sweet memory, I will always kept in my heart, this will be the best memory for me forever, it had no price for that, it just belong to three of us, that’s the precious gift for me since I was born, thanks to you my dear Papa and mummy… I love you guys… I really love you guys… you two meant everything for me… thanks for bring me to this world… teach me lots of the things, and gave me a wonderful family before, and thanks for the childhood memory…
Papa… I have a lot of thing wish that I could tell you, I don’t know that the path I’m taking now is right or wrong, am I decision is right Papa?
If you ask me, I would tell you that I’m think I choosing the wrong way for me, I’m too selfish for leaving hui alone at Kelantan, I’m not a good sister for her, even for wendy & raymond, their loose the love of parents, and the elder sister… I’m useless papa… I’m useless… I always thought married is the best way for me to leave the house that I always wish to run away, but I didn’t realize that house it full of love, caring and the person that I used to always miss it now… I miss them so much, now I have to learn begin a new life in new place without anyone with me, just me all alone, with the new life, new faces…
Although I always think that KB is the sad place for me, and I should leave it, but well papa, I miss it now and miss it very much… and sorry papa… I leave far away from grandma now, I didn’t realise your last wishes.. I’m sorry papa… I’m very sorry… I promise ypu papa.. when I have time I sure I will go back to visit her… I promise… cross my heart…
