Miss Daddy Jimmy Nitez..

I think I will going far away from you forever and ever now..
Be a good girl and take good care of Granny,
Papa love you forever...
And please dont cry for me..
Did you still remember this words Papa??
This is the last words that I hear from you Papa,
Papa, your now already far away from me for 5 years,
Papa, Dont you know that I'm still miss you now..
I still cant accept the truth that You already gone forever,
I still have a lot thing to share with you,
I still want to hear your story,
I still want to hug you while watching tv,
I still want to see your smile and laugh after you kiding with me,
I still want to see your face and your smile,

Papa, I really miss you..

Although already 5 years that you leave me here all alone..
I still remember how did you go far away from me..
It killing my heart when I think back that moment...
It just seem like yesterday...


Papa....
What make you so easily go far away from me,
Dont you know that how much the pain that i feel in my heart??
And how hurt it is??
I know the god is punish me now,
It want me to feel your feeling too when Mummy take me out of your life,
Papa, I know that feel.. I finally know that feeling..
I finally know how much did you miss me when you need me most...
But it's too late for me...

I'm sorry Papa...
Sorry for too late just realize how did you feel for me when I was not by your side..
I'm sorry Papa.. I'm very sorry...

Papa...

Till now I still crying when I'm thinking of you...
It not change after you far away for 5 years..

Papa..
After you divorced with Mummy,
I had blame you before.
I blame you for turn a happiness family into a broken family..
That moment I was hate you,
I hate you for leaving me,
While you asking me,
Am i going to choose Mummy or Papa?
I told you i'm choosing you,
But you didn't follow my answer,
You send me back to grandma house,
And told me to take care,
And be a good girl
That moment my deep inside of my bottom heart,
I learn to hate you..
I hate you for doing like this to me,
And I learn not to trust and believe people,
Even my own familly,
Papa, It still fresh on my mind..
I still remember and feel it..
But everything have change
When you always come to school find me,
You told a lot a meaningful story to me,
Papa, That time I doesn't hate you anymore..
Really didn't hate you anymore..

Papa,
The moment saw you laying at hospital
From normal ward to critical ward
I just knew that I cant be without you..
In my heart I keep on praying that you will be fine soon,
Very soon...
But.............
After received a phone call from step mother,
Your already transfer to ICU..
And your not yet wake up from coma,
That moment only god know what I'm feeling..
Papa,
I've been crying for two whole days...
For you..
Only you...
My Dearest Papa...

Papa,
I'm really miss you,
I'd rather loose everything that I having now,
To make you come back...
Even my own life,
Because I dont want to see Granny crying for you anymore,
But It just a stupid thinking of mine...
You never come back..
Never...
Never..
Never anymore....

Papa,
I'm now doing great with my life,
Although it a bit loneliness,
But I knew my life must go on..
No matter what i'm still missing you here..
And always will miss you at here...
Papa,
Now at night I already can sleep,
Without your goood night kiss,
And your good night hug..
Papa,
Now i will find a time went to Perhentian Island
To flash back our memory..
I still remeber that big dinasour mountain,
It remind me on you..

Papa..
Your always in my heart for always..
My love for you always go on,
Although there is no life after you...